so i just deleted a proper paragraph before this. it sucks. this whole thing sucks. life can be a vacuum cleaner sometimes. i hate it. u think i want it. hell no. but i really do not need someone like you. with such a bad ass character. i guess u just havent understood forgiveness. whatever. suits you.

having shit gz practice later one. it sucks okay the timing. and then later on i cant really do anything anymore. freak. im in a really bad mood now. FUCK.

i realised i have been in a very good mood after the last misunderstanding we had. i don shoot some unsightly words anymore. so i dunno. that just came out. sorry but i am a vulgar person. and you probably cant do anything abt it.

if im flaring up or losin my temper at any of you. im saying sorry first. cos i don mean to. and i hope you understand. im okay. i just need to clear whats inside of me. and sorry once again if i vent it out on you all.

please don give the sick puppy look to me anymore please. I HATE IT. or to anyone else. I HATE HOW YOU ALWAYS ASK FOR OTHER PPL'S NAMES WHEN YOU DONT KNOW THEM. I HATE HOW YOU ALWAYS DO THAT IN ORDER TO INCREASE UR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS. I HATE HOW YOU ALWAYS DO THAT TO ME!! F F F! BUT SOMETIMES I DONT SAY THESE THINGS OUT BECAUSE I STILL LIKE YOU A LOT AND UR STILL A GREAT FRIEND TO ME PLEASE DO NOT RUIN THAT IMPRESSION OF YOU IN ME. THE ONE WHO HAD STOOD BY ME ALL OF THESE TIMES. THE ONE WHO CARED SO MUCH. THE ONE WHOM IVE PUT MY TRUST IN. THE ONE I HAVE LOVED SO MUCH. BUT UR ACTIONS AND UR WORDS. ARE MAKING ME DOUBT IF THIS IS ALL WORTH WHILE. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT ALL THESE ARE JUST PART OF LIFE. JUST SOMETHING THATS ONLY TEMPORARY. SOMETHING THAT IS ALL IN ALL. MEANINGLESS TO YOU. IM SORRY.