ms toh didnt let me finish the last part of my science paper ): it wasnt as easy as i expected. cause full of misleading questions lah and i got so confused over the PROTON NEUTRON ELECTRON part!!!! !@#$%!%!!!! i could so kill myself for that. IT WAS THE BASIC PART OF ALL! IM SO STUPID!

NO. OF PROTON = NO. OF ELECTRON

and i went to put
NO.OF PROTON = NO. OF NEUTRON

NOOOOOO! freakin shit.

i currently have a lot inside of me now. a whole lot. like you add chilli ketchup, lemon, sugar, tobacco sauce, pepper into a cup of coke and u drink it all up. yes. i feel like that right now. and i so want to throw up my insides out till i die and rot away. thats one great way to die ( still, to die laughing is the best method yet) . ahhhh i feel like disappearing frm this life-absorbing planet and then come back when everything is over and done with and life will so be great once more.

i like talking to people on msn. i dont know why. maybe cause i open up more? hahahaha. no lah cos i wont feel so thristy after talking so much. and the only person i can really talk with now in person is jovita. yeah i guess thats cause shes a very very very good listener. hahaha yay i have a great buddy [: not to mention the silly-ness she always show that never fails to make me laugh till my stomach ache and then seeing me laugh, she'll laugh too. haha then we'll all start laughing all over again. quite cool man. i like laughing till my stomach ache and my jaw gets tired. it makes me happy. happy like ive got no worries... (:

I WANNA GO BACK TO PHUKET. I WANNA SNORKLE AGAIN. I WANNA DO SCUBADIVING. THERES SO MANY THINGS I WANNA DO THERE. BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WAIT SUPER LONG. that was super random. :

ben jelen come on

And finally the silence
looking out
looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
how did she go
I wanna
I wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming
here to me

Come on
without you
I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come On, you know that we belong
come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
where did she go
how did she go
I wanna
I wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming
here to me

Come on
without you
I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come On, you know that we belong
come on, come on, come on, come on
Cause each of her kisses and my heart misses

She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing,
desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
breathing for her
singing for her fairytale

Come on
without you
I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come On, you know that we belong
come on, come on, come on, come on

Come on
without you
I'll never feel the love inside of me
come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on